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Just your average translater living in her goth slut era

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I did similar with Lupron before getting an orchiectomy. I had to take every 4 weeks though

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This. Everything you wrote is how I feel about it. Thank you for writing this

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You sure she wasn’t just playing nice in order to turn them into a coat?

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At least once as in having them on one’s self?

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Let’s be honest, there is no such thing as an old, fat femboy. There’s a specific unfortunate ED component to femboys.

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I remember having an embarrassing moment in high school, talking with close friends, talking about would we ever want to be a girl, and I said pregnancy seems cool. They did not feel the same… at all 😅

CW: Harry Potter. What's your stance on JK Rowling and Hogwarts Legacy ( lemmy.blahaj.zone )

Hey there, I’m a mod of c/traa and was recently called out for saying JK Rowling is transphobic and buying the Hogwarts game is a bad idea. I was told that the ‘actual trans people with sense’ are here and agree that playing the Hogwarts game is fine, and so is giving money to a transphobe billionaire. This ally of trans...

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My partner and my favorite season was Autumn and felt like “guess I’ll be an Autumn then 😁”

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Hii! 😁

How do I like, ACTUALLY, get over internalized transphobia?

I want to talk about this because this has been a very major issue for me. I’ve suffered through various kinds of internalized bigotry for a very long time. I’ve had immense internalized racism due to the fact that I’m black alongside internalized anti-neurodivergent sentiment and internalized queer/transphobia....

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Trans people IRL are nothing like online. Not everyone is into computers or programming. People vary a lot.

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I used to call it scared-cited or nervous-cited. Its like you seem to flip between worry and euphoria, right?

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One thing I wish I did before starting was taking one last photo of myself. It’s harder to appreciate the changes when you’re only looking at the bigger picture and don’t notice the smaller, less visible changes.

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It’s normal. Just keep composure and don’t be creepy about it.

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I was at rock bottom when I came out. I figured that if it was life or death then fuck it, I’m going out how I feel I should. That was 4 years ago. I feel like the misgendering stopped at around the 3 to 3.5 year mark and that was the worst thing to happen. Keep in mind I live in a very liberal area and get hypervigilant when traveling to conservative areas.

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I hate, hate to ask this, but would this have made January 6th “valid”?

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The worst is having to talk and it all falls apart 😮‍💨

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And John Cleese is now a transphobe. Go figure. (Other members are cool from what I’ve heard)

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Every day I wake up exhausted trying to look for a silver lining but more often not finding it until sleep.

There's still room for improvement, but Linux gaming has come a long way in a short time. ( lemmy.world )

I remember when Proton launched it was like magic playing games like Doom and Nier Automata straight from the Linux Steam client with excellent performance. I do not miss the days of having the Windows version of Steam installed separately.

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Still waiting on Borderlands 2 to be playable

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Hi, mom here. How was your day, sweetie?

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Good for you getting some work done even though it was too hot out. Enjoy spending time with your bf. hugs

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Good job. Proud of you for doing that. What’s your project about?

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That render was awesome. And you wrote it in code? That’s absolutely fascinating!
And while I don’t know ESP32s as in depth as you do, smarty pants 😝, I do have an animated name badge I got at a furry convention that might be powered by one as well as a few of my wireless lightbulbs. But programming a 2D platforming game into them I have no idea. I’m just astonished with what you’ve made and are making. Such a smart girl

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Aww, that smile. And so handsome, too. As a mom, this makes me so happy to see. 🥰

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Beware of doors, car doors, door frames, etc. Your newfound nips will find them and hurt you 😄

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This scares the shit out of me because I’ve seen women change their demeanor when they pick up on me being trans. It’s not a lot, but you can sense the change conversationally as well as the emotional walls going up.
I hate it and can’t wait for the day that other stealth trans women talk about a la being asked for pads/tampons, risk of being pregnant going into the hospital, stuff like that.

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Sure, but I'll need to force myself to use vc.

Is it normal to misgender yourself?

When I talk to myself, sometimes I call myself my dead name, or my gender I don’t associate myself with. I am self-aware enough to know I’ve associated myself as male and [name] for thirty-seven years, but it annoys me I haven’t made that connection in my brain somewhere that yes, I’m a girl, my name is Eshe. I feel it...

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Hi, Eshe. Trans’d at 36, 39 now, didn’t feel my “default” idea of self and gendering set until this past year roughly. Not sure if it was time or surgery that flipped that switch though.

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Have you only been out for a week or chose that name a week ago?

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It does. Trust me ❤️

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