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It's a beautiful, frustrating, fun discovery. I used to work night shift and played with long exposure stuff a lot on my nights off

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I'm sure that would have no negative side effects for the rest of Israel /s 🙄

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My bad, for some reason I had it in my mind it was similar situation to reservations in the US. Technically independent, but technically kind of not.

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There are various websites that catalog all the instances they can find, but I can't remember the one I used back in the day an don't know if they search communities too or just instances

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Finding out you're trans later in life is like watching a movie littered with spoilers for the ending but you don't realize it til you get to the end look back.

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I had a similar childhood knowing I was different somehow but I don't think any adults around me would have even considered autism as a possibility when and where I grew up. I think even now they probably have the mindset of "no you're not the stereotypical depiction of a high needs autistic person" 🙄

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Yeah, no problem. I thought about posting it in the general trans community.

I thought I was taking it slow! It has been a little less than a year since I realized. I think I'm in a similar place, it's a big thing and I want to know that it's what I really want.
Also, once that closet door comes open, there's no going back, which is really scary.

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That's one of the things that's been on my mind lately 😂 if I'm not terrified of even considering, I probably won't hate it.

I think part of my deal is change is difficult and attention drawn to it is also uncomfortable and this is both.

Change is hard enough, but then people being like "oh! You changed something. Why?"

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This is true. I tend to get stuck in an all or nothing mindset til someone reminds me there are other options too 😅

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This is a perfect comment.

I can't speak for others but I probably borderline obsessively have to get all the info possible because I fear making the "obvious" wrong decision.

I'm somewhat relieved but also saddened that there's this many of these kind of posts.
I have been feeling like it's a similar feeling to when I realized I was trans, and when I finally was able to accept it.

I appreciate your blunt honesty. 💜 I needed it. I think that's where I am. As far as I know to go, looking for confirmation before I jump.

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It's interesting you phrase it that way!

The voice incide feels kind of excited about the idea(hopefully it's not just the adhd getting bored)
I mean, it's obviously puberty 2,which I know isn't really ever fun, but there is some excited almost looking forward to it feeling.

The other bullshit is definitely a thing hanging over my head, but I realized recently, I'm fairly certain transitioning or not, some of these issues are coming up with my family eventually anyway, but transitioning will definitely bring up a lot of things sooner, and I'm a strong conflict avoider.

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Thanks! DAMN that channel's got a lot!

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  • Blahaj_Blast ,
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    I thought that with this Pic, it sounded like something neon Joe : werewolf hunter would say

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    At least we all learned our lessons from the last one and will definitely have no issues when it happens again. /s

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    Nature will be fine, it’s not it’s first rodeo.

    Humanity might be fucked though.

    18+ An nsfw thing is still happening even though I'm on E

    So whenever I cum I still relate a whitish cum, I was kinda concerned and I believe it should be clear or non existent. Also my labito has been high. I’m on 0.30ml of estradiol cypinare once per week, I’m also on spiro but I’ve been off of a spiro due to a move and only recently restarted it. I’ve also been bad about...

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    How long have you been on E? I know with a vasectomy I was told it takes about 3 months to empty the sperms already at a certain stage of development. And that’s with a quick off switch, I’m not sure how hrt works but I’d guess it tapers off, so who knows how long to get them all out, assuming that ever happens, idk.

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    Also not blurred on Sync

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    Yep. I’m out of my depth here 😅

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    I’ve been playing with nail polish for a bit, and definitely enjoy it as a bit of a creative outlet on top of personal expression.

    I had not thought of a fetish store, I’m not sure if I have one or not, but will definitely keep that in mind. I’ve been trying to figure out my skin tone so I can get a reasonable idea of where to start.

    One of the first things I bought after cracking was those “programmer socks” the thigh highs, but it turns out I’m too thick for “one size fits all” 😅

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    One of the first things I would want to get is some kind of quality remover 😂

    That makes sense, it being an art.

    Before, I had thought of it as more intimidating because I was thinking all in on everything, but recently realized, I could ease into it with more subtle things, which makes it feel more attainable and maybe more exciting to consider?

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    I think I know what you are getting at, but could you share an example?

    Blahaj_Blast OP ,
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    I think I have heard of them! Is that the company that has larger sizes catering more towards transfem people?

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    Glad to be of service! o7

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    Blahaj_Blast ,
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    I remember asking my brother something like “if you could come back and live another life after this one, would you want to see what it was like as a girl?” he was like “noo??” I was like “oh…” and years later it was like “OHHH!”

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    I didn’t know about the shirtless thing being a sign. I did have a time like that but I had assumed it was because I didn’t like my fat body and later puberty body hair. It might have been more complicated that that 😅

    I may have done something similar about the women thing too. Can’t say about the dreams though.

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    I forgot until later that somewhere nearish to that time I also felt weird about it because I thought somehow everyone messed up at my birth and thought I was a boy, but I wasn’t and no one knew but me. 😂 I was young enough to not know enough anatomy, but the thought still 😅

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    I had a teacher once who had used the old school non-flexible contacts and said “when the first thing you do in the morning is put a piece of glass in your eye, you’re day just goes uphill from there.”

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